54 Points

That's what I ate in one day! WTF. I've never considered myself an emotional eater until now. Yesterday just got to me, I have a coworker who I don't get along with and I let her get to me yesterday, which I don't normally do. It's hard to sit here and work and pick up her slack while she takes personal call after personal call and doesn't do shit at her desk. Ahhh, the glory of being a government worker where no one gets fired for doing a shitty job. If I stay late one more time this week working late for free, hubby is going to kill me. So I'm not letting it get to me today, I'm out of here at 4:30 and that's that!

On to my gluttonous part of the day...
I started the day off nicely with a Jimmy Dean light breakfast sandwich (5)
Coffee sounded good, add some creamer and a tiny bit of sugar (3)

I had a great lunch packed of ham/spinach/cheese/couscous already to go. Then my evil boss suggested we get lunch, she of course can eat anything and is thin! We settled on Chipotle. I got my usual chicken burrito bowl with corn salsa, cheese and chips. I gave half the chips to a coworker with some salsa and used the rest in my bowl (17)

I got home and didn't have a plan for dinner, I have meal plans the rest of the week but didn't last night because I was supposed to go to dinner with a friend, she bailed on me, so I stayed home with hubby. Before he got home I ate a few handfuls of Cool Ranch Doritos (5.5)...fuck, it was a 57 point day, there was a fudge round (3) that I didn't include...sigh.

When hubby got home we had Totino's pizzas. Of course I had to have one all by myself and I need milk with it, I don't know why but pizza and milk go together for me (18.5). Along with that there was some buttered egg noodles from Sunday night dinner that hubby was eating. They looked tasty so I had a bowl (4).

This was all by 6:00 p.m.!!!!!

I tried to keep busy but during Biggest Loser I ended up heating up a bag of popcorn (1) to get me through it and brushed my teeth as soon as I was done so that I wouldn't snack anymore.


Now, the old me would have just forgotten about yesterday and started over today. I even thought about doing it still. But I remembered how good it felt to see a loss this week and I want that again. So I tracked it all and am down to 1 WP left and so far I will only earn 1 AP this week with my bowling night tomorrow night.

I weighed myself (yes, I do it all the time) and expected ~3lbs worth of sodium to be taking residency in my body after all the crap I ate yesterday but I was actually down 1.5 lbs from the day before. I know the number on the scale shouldn't be such a decision maker for me but it does help to know I can screw up and it's not going to ruin everything. I can screw up and not feel like I might as well give up for the week, which was the old me.

I received my trigger shot in the mail yesterday. The way my RE works is they have the pharmacy call me directly, I pay for it or give my insurance (ha, like they'd pay for that) and they mail it to me. Came in one day by priority mail all neatly wrapped up. I have it sitting very safely away from any puppies until I can take it in next week and give it to my doctor.

I really hope this works this month but I'm going to be honest here. This is a little embarrassing. A girlfriend talked me into having one of those Roxie readings. I don't believe in psychics but she talked me into it (I suck when it comes to peer pressure). Roxie said she saw the month of December and a boy. Now the month can be the month you conceive in, find out in or the month you're due. If we get pregnant this cycle it will be an early November baby. If we get pregnant next cycle or the cycle after that it will be a December baby. I can't help but wonder if I'm not meant to get a BFP this month but that it will come in the next two cycles. I did get pregnant (and miscarried) a little over a year ago and that involved nothing cycle 1, O'ing cycle 2 and getting pregnant cycle 3. So who knows. I don't take much stock in psychics and that crazy shit but it's a looming thought I suppose.

Down 2 pounds!

Which is surprising after the wine tasting event this weekend. It's this great event that I go to each year with my sister-in-law and a few girlfriends. We always have a blast and this year was no different. Lots of wine drinking but I behaved this year and only bought two bottles because 1. We're broke and 2. My wine fridge is full, where the hell am I going to put more wine?

AF finally showed up. I was the nastiest person ever on Friday and Saturday morning at 3 a.m. she finally showed up while I was at work. I was never so happy to get my period. So now today is CD3 and I'm off to the doctor's office for my CD3 ultrasound and my Rx for Clomid, then they'll set up my appointments for monitoring next week and my trigger shot. I'm keeping my fingers crossed since if I don't get a BFP this month, most likely AF will effing show up while I'm at Kalahari (an indoor water park) at the end of the month getting a much needed break.

My goal this week is to work out more. I didn't get much in last week, not that I didn't still lose but that's not the point. So I'm going to push myself to be a little more active this week, especially with having another weekend off coming up, I definitely have the time to get to the gym and run or do my yoga.