I'm a loser

Well in weight loss, I lost 2.2 lbs this week. Not as much as I hoped but I'm still awaiting AF and my work pants were TIGHT this morning, so I'm sure she's almost here and maybe I'll see more of a loss next week from this gain from TOM. Weekend was so-so. Friday night I made Island Chicken with rice pilaf and a mango/canteloupe salsa. It was delish. Then I needed to escape for a bit so I went to the gym to do my run for the day. That felt good. Saturday was spent cleaning the house and I did the Shred. I had to work Saturday night though, so not in the mood to work all the time lately, I'm just burned out from the two jobs lately.

Sunday was more of the same but I went to the gym to get my run in while the boys went on a driving lesson, then they came back to the gym and we ate Subway for lunch. I had to work again last night, I'm just feeling so much animosity towards working lately. I need to get over it, it's not like I'm going to become independently wealthy anytime soon.

Didn't go grocery shopping for the week like I normally do and won't be able to until tomorrow night as I have yoga and school tonight. So this morning it was the last english muffin (I just bought a 6-pack Saturday...it's hard living with boys who can eat whatever they want) with some Laughing Cow garlic cheese and coffee for breakfast and for lunch it was a Smart Ones and yogurt. Not good nutrition wise but I'm staying within my points and I have 100-calorie popcorn for a snack this afternoon if I get to the point where I think I'm going to die...this happens sometimes, lol.

Lunch hour is almst over and my homework is not done for tonight, hawt. I should get back to it.

Chugging along

This week hasn't been too bad in the weight loss area. I've done well with my points. Tuesday night I had to come up with a dinner as some plans fell through. I made hubby an italian burger patty melt, just mixed seasonings in with the beef, cooked it, put it between bread with cheese and toasted it like grilled cheese, he was happy. I on the otherhand have been craving fish. So I made a healthier version of Rachael Ray's margarita fish, knowing I had some limes, tequila and tilapia at home. It was okay, it is going to need some tweaking.

I'm on my Provera and my last pill is 01/24/10, this Sunday, so I should start AF sometime next week. Can't wait to start the baby-making again!

I'm trying to get more plain water in today. I've been downing the Crystal Light like crazy.

Workouts have been good this week:
Monday - Jogged/walked
Tuesday - Elliptical on lunch hour/30-day Shred (Jillian Michaels DVD) in the evening
Wednesday - Jogged/walked

I'm doing the couch potato to 5k and the last stint of running (I'm in week 2) I gave it my all. I thought I was going to fall over from a heart attack afterwards but then I felt so much better knowing I'd worked hard at it. I went home and had an apple with PB2 on it, milk and a few baked ruffles. Hubby and I just spent the rest of the night playing Words on our iPods and watched part of the Biggest Loser, couldn't stay up and watch the whole thing, so I just paused and hopefully we can watch it tonight.

Vampire Diaries is back on tonight! Yes! I'm obsessed, never read the books but Stefan and Damian are a couple of hot ass brother vampires.

I was never one for being committed to a show but I have a ton this year, I don't get it.

Gossip Girl
90210
Melrose Place
Vampire Diaries
Grey's Anatomy
How I Met Your Mother (just became a recent fan and bought seasons 1-3 on sale at Best Buy for $14.99 each thank you)


Alright, I must do some work, I'm just rambling away at this point. Toodles.

Gained...ugh

I won't let it get me down, I won't! But I did gain 3.2 lbs this week. I was on plan with WW almost the entire time except Friday night went a little over with individual homemade pizzas when we had dinner at Tim & Mindy's house and then last night we had dinner at hubby's mom's house with their family, all they had was chili, sausages, meatballs, antipasto salad, not a lot of healthy choices, so I did the best I could.

I'm going to start going to the meetings this week sometime. I'm hoping that will help keep me on track. I'm off today for MLK Day but I'm working tonight at my part-time job. Gonna get a workout in today and finish cleaning up around the house. I so don't want to go back to work tomorrow.

This morning I got up, made coffee and packed my hubby his lunch so he didn't have to eat a bunch of crap from Oh say McDonald's. It felt nice to be a little like the little lady who stayed home.

I did the 30-day shred Saturday...Jillian is so mean! It hurt to cough yesterday. We'll see what it does to me today.

So far so good!

The last few days have gone pretty well. I've made healthier choices for meals and followed my points. I feel better and hope to continue this. I also started back on prenatal vitamins to get my body geared up for baby-making later this month or next month.

Monday I missed my yoga class though because of the damn windshield needing replaced. But I made up for it yesterday, got in a great run and lots of walking last night. Also spent some quality time with hubby in the evening (which we don't do enough of). We watched trash television and enjoyed every last minute of making fun of those people. Well at least the hoochy mama's on The Bachelor. Wow. We also watched The Biggest Loser, which we always do, and of course I teared up a few times (lame, I know), I don't know what is up with my emotions lately!?!?!? We cleaned, ate dinner and then I went to the gym to get my workout in.

Tonight, more of the same. The beginner's yoga class isn't until 6:15, but I'm going to go there after work and walk on the treadmill until it's time. I figure if I go home first I'll be more likely to just say forget about it, with all the snow and freezing rain we're getting today.

Next week I start classes, so I'm worried I won't find the time but I'm trying my hardest to make sure I still go, this is about making sure I'm healthy and my body is ready for a baby, so it's just as important as school to me. I will be going to school on Monday nights from 6:40 - 10:40 and Wednesdays from 6:40 - 7:55, so I can still make the Intro Yoga class (really an all levels where they introduce new poses each month) from 5-6 and then change and head to class on Mondays. Wednesdays I won't be able to but there's a class on Friday's when I'm free and of course the regular Saturday morning that I enjoy going to.

Tonight is leftover night. We have soup from Monday night and a turkey tenderloin from last night to finish up along with some veggies that will go bad soon, so salads galore people! I'll be happy with just the soup though, it's a cheese tortellini with tons of veggies and it turned out delicious this time around.

I'd say my only problem really is I feel like it's so hard to budget for healthier eating. Veggies and fruits are more expensive and we're so broke lately that I feel like the more I spend on that, the less we have to save towards baby related things and activities. Oh well, guess I just need to plan better and look at sales more often.

I want a baby. I want a baby like there's no tomorrow. We've been trying for almost two years. My body is broken and I just want it to work like normal girls. We finally got all the infertility testing done and it's me, all me. But nothing they can diagnose, I'm a "freak." Hubby was perfect, very high count and good motility. We decided to start treatment in February, I can't wait, every day seems to drag until I can start taking the Provera and bring on AF.

Meanwhile it's time to lose some weight. It may or may not help the IF problem but hell it can't hurt anything, right? Three years ago I lost 42 lbs on Weight Watchers and why fix what isn't broken, right? So I'm going to try Weight Watchers again. If I stick with it, I can do it, it's just a matter of not being lazy and mindlessly eating. Today was my first day back on plan and I'm doing great. I had pumpkin yogurt, a recipe I found over on http://www.greenlitebites.com/, that was very good, like eating a pumpkin pie for breakfast without the crust, along with some fruit. Lunch was grilled chicken, whole wheat pasta and an Italian veggie medley salad I found in Kraft's magazine awhile back and have been wanting to try. Dinner is a Veggie & Tortellini soup, surprisingly I'll still have 7ish points left for the day, so I'll sneak in some milk and a late night snack.

I was already doing yoga that I just tried out last month (and loooooove) and started running again, which always makes me feel better when I can find the time for it. Yoga is tonight and I had my bag packed but my windshield broke last night. My appointment is at 4, Yoga is at 5 just down the road, so as long as it's over in time I'll be fine, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it if I can't make it there, you can't go in class once it has started.

My goal is to lose 60 lbs. Now some would say that's still too big for my height but I wore two pieces with confidence at that weight (not that I've ever had a self-confidence issue, Ms. In Love With Herself), that is a weight that makes me happy and that I feel good at. Besides, any smaller and I'd lose this lovely pair of tata's God gifted me with. But that will put me at 150 and I loved the 150's.

I realize that I'm doing two things that counteract each other, but if one helps the other then so be it. And besides, it could be eons before I finally get pregnant, so why not make my body as healthy as can be in the process, and besides that way I won't be a total fatty when I finally get pregnant.

I'm going to keep all this up and hope for the best. Next month it's onto baby-making!