I want a baby. I want a baby like there's no tomorrow. We've been trying for almost two years. My body is broken and I just want it to work like normal girls. We finally got all the infertility testing done and it's me, all me. But nothing they can diagnose, I'm a "freak." Hubby was perfect, very high count and good motility. We decided to start treatment in February, I can't wait, every day seems to drag until I can start taking the Provera and bring on AF.

Meanwhile it's time to lose some weight. It may or may not help the IF problem but hell it can't hurt anything, right? Three years ago I lost 42 lbs on Weight Watchers and why fix what isn't broken, right? So I'm going to try Weight Watchers again. If I stick with it, I can do it, it's just a matter of not being lazy and mindlessly eating. Today was my first day back on plan and I'm doing great. I had pumpkin yogurt, a recipe I found over on http://www.greenlitebites.com/, that was very good, like eating a pumpkin pie for breakfast without the crust, along with some fruit. Lunch was grilled chicken, whole wheat pasta and an Italian veggie medley salad I found in Kraft's magazine awhile back and have been wanting to try. Dinner is a Veggie & Tortellini soup, surprisingly I'll still have 7ish points left for the day, so I'll sneak in some milk and a late night snack.

I was already doing yoga that I just tried out last month (and loooooove) and started running again, which always makes me feel better when I can find the time for it. Yoga is tonight and I had my bag packed but my windshield broke last night. My appointment is at 4, Yoga is at 5 just down the road, so as long as it's over in time I'll be fine, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it if I can't make it there, you can't go in class once it has started.

My goal is to lose 60 lbs. Now some would say that's still too big for my height but I wore two pieces with confidence at that weight (not that I've ever had a self-confidence issue, Ms. In Love With Herself), that is a weight that makes me happy and that I feel good at. Besides, any smaller and I'd lose this lovely pair of tata's God gifted me with. But that will put me at 150 and I loved the 150's.

I realize that I'm doing two things that counteract each other, but if one helps the other then so be it. And besides, it could be eons before I finally get pregnant, so why not make my body as healthy as can be in the process, and besides that way I won't be a total fatty when I finally get pregnant.

I'm going to keep all this up and hope for the best. Next month it's onto baby-making!